I still feel as if I am in the movie ‘und ewig grüsst das Murmeltier’ – aka ‘Groundhog Day’!
Things happen, and situations occur over and over again. Very often it seems as if I get a chance to rectify things this time around. Where I went wrong before, either due to my own clouded vision, or due to the clouded vision of other people involved.
The clouded vision I am talking about, means, not seeing the situation, like Jesus does. He has helped me wear the eyes of grace, mercy, redemption and love rather than the ones of condemnation, judgement and hurt ego.
I am forever grateful for this new vision. All things look different now. Nothing, as bleak as it may appear, is really bleak. Forever there is hope.
Again I am approaching my birthday. Turning yet another year older – and looking back, I can say, that 2015 sure was one of my hardest yet – facing challenges galore on so many levels, but in hind sight, I can say, that it only made me love Jesus more.
His love has always proven true and strong. It’s like a light piercing through the darkness, giving me hope and peace.
So far he has not abandoned me, but walked through the valleys with me. And I know, he never will. His is faithful and true, and he speaks to me of his deep love for me – how can I not trust him with everything concerning me?
I know I cannot turn back – I have long passed the point of no return. Every step leads me closer to Pradise, every breath leading me closer into his arms of everlasting love, joy, peace and purpose!
Life is a little subdued these days, due to my heart issue, just feels like I am going in slow motion. No need to worry, the pain has not returned. I am just taking things slow. I have cut back on coffee and I am living on smoothies except dinner with my children, to strengthen my body, by not putting too much strain on it for digestion. Thus it can put more energy into healing me from the inside out. Thus I honor the temple, in which God can dwell more fully every day.
I am not worried, for I know, that he is in control of all things. He leads me into a deeper understanding of his plan through and because of it.
In all the challenges of life, I can choose to trust him more or to trust him less, trying to take things in my own hands. My choice is always: I trust the Lord more. And the more I do, the more he can work in and through me. The more I trust him, and give him the glory for all that happens in my life, the more he can bless me.
I recently realized, that with regards to tithing, listening to the Holy Spirit, reading and obeying his word, praying, fasting or worshipping him, and giving my all to him, he can bless me more and more. The more I open my heart to him, the more he dwells in me, the more I can receive heaven here on earth.
This is his masterplan: his heart towards his children, his beloved, is Yes, Amen and Blessings galore. The dreams that you cannot quench out of your being are your destiny……your destiny is a journey not a destination – we all get there, flaws and all, the more we let his light shine through us.
I am forever thankful, for the closeness of our relationship. My precious Jesus and I – it’s pure love.
Thank you, Jesus, for loving me so much, for leading me closer and closer into your presence. Into paradise. With you.
I know, that with him, my best is yet to come.
Praise God – forever your friend