Packing up and going home – revisited


Expecting his best – always

Hello my dear friends

Again and again, I am being changed from Glory to Glory, by his great compassion for me. His plans are always higher than mine, his ways and thoughts are always higher and better than mine. Why am I calling this post: Packing up and going home – revisited: Last year I posted a similar post… can find that post in my blog inhispresence4evermore – written March 21, 2015. Click on the link below, to read the post:

Are we to go home, and leave Canada for good? I am trusting him for the answers, for the plan.

Somehow I believe, we ought to stay here for a few more years, but it sure doesn’t look like that in the so called reality.

There is only two ways, that it could work:  I find a company, that meets the provincial sponsorship criteria, or the government reverses my status back to permanent resident, as it was before I was falsely advised to renounce my status.

Will our lives be here – or abroad. My daughter’s fervent prayer is to stay here. This is her home. It’s here she has her friends.

My son is a little less attached to staying here. This doesn’t surprise me. He had to suffer through so much here in Canada. But again, God can redeem all that. Will he do it for us.

Is Satan arguing our case with God Almighty even now: ‘You may think, this woman and her children are yours, but what if I shook up their whole existence? Would they still praise and worship you?’ – well: yes, the answer is yes! We would! I always will. I can’t let go.

I trust him with all my heart, and lean not on my own understanding. It is no coincidence that this is my tattoo just above my left ankle. This has proven my life verse for many years now.

I go, where he has me go, and I know, whatever the devil intends for evil. God will turn it around for my/our best. He has in the past and he will in the future.

Looking back, all of life’s curveballs have brought me closer to the heart of my beloved, and the peace that floods my heart, even in the midst of financial break down, of challenges on numerous levels, is paramount.

So, looking back: I have to say, that I have to thank Satan for all that he has thrown our way. I would not be in my relationship with the Lord, where I am, if he had not tried to stop us in our tracks. Just, like Jesus had to be betrayed by Judas, to go to the cross to bring salvation to mankind, to fulfill the Father’s plan for redemption. Ultimately we have to thank Judas for his work.

Satan, as it seems right now, has proven to be a catalyst in my faith walk. Maybe we have it all wrong – maybe he is actually helping us, to return back home, and return to our personal Eden.

I trust, that the Lord will restore unto us, all that seems lost right now. He will show us the way – and in surrendering to his plan, we will lose all our self centered egotistic desires, and will find our true identity in Christ. Just like God had intended it from the start.
Let’s go, my friends, embrace the curveballs of life and end up in Heaven.

See you there 💞


Again, I am asked to let go.

Trusting, Hoping and Believing him for all he said he would do!

Hello my friends…..

Lately I have had another load of big struggles in – and outside of me. 

These days, I find it easier to resonate with my son, than with my daughter. She is turning into quite the teenager with an attitude. Mind you, she is only 10. 

My son has had some rough patches lately, too – luckily we got it sorted out and are even closer now. 

The financial situation is still extremely difficult. Especially since a source of income, that I had considered trustworthy turned sour in just a couple of days. How blessed am I, that despite the possibility of loosing money, where I thought I had finally found a way to sustain my family, no real damage was done. Thanks to my Jesus watching over me and his Angels making sure, that I was not in harms way.

Yet, that leaves me scrambling again. Not knowing where and how I can sustain my family. But I have to say: I am at peace – in the depth of my heart, I know, that my Jesus will come through again, how he has done many times over! 

But last night, when I felt extremely frustrated at my daughter, I felt compelled, to ask: Lord, why is our relationship that way – what is causing us, to see each other in such a way, that we cannot see the good, but have to find fault?

This morning, as I was leaving the house, to get coffee……the Lord showed me, that I had a lot of resentment inside my heart, with respect, to how my situation is right now, I feel taken advantage of, mainly by my original family – the choices they made, have brought me to where I am right now. Mind you, I allowed it, but I am still where I am.

I know, that my little girl feels the same way in many aspects of her life. Until I release these resentments into the hands of the only one, that can heal my heart, we are bound to frustrate one another (my daughter and I – and if I look deeper, my mother and I share the same feelings, my mother and her mother, too). Again it’s this passing unresolved issues on from generation to generation. 

Yet, with my son, 5 years ago, I took a step, to break those chains, that bound him and me in a similar struggle. Jesus guided my steps, and I faced a lot of the issues head on, holding on to my saviour’s hand. Knowing that he was going  to walk through this with me.

Today, my son and I have a much better relationship. Now I am going to do the same for my girl. Jesus will have to help me with that one, too.

Already today I got to release some pain and I shed some tears, I know, there will be more. But ultimately I know, that we will emerge from this journey, more like Christ, more beautiful, we will have handed the ashes to the one, who longs to give us the beauty, if we only hand him all the pieces.

Very often we don’t even know, that we are still holding on to old wounds – let him show you, where you are hurting, and he will heal your heart. Very tenderly, one piece at a time. Trust the journey and he will finish the good work, he has begun in you and me.

Then, one day, we will be able to see everything in a different, more splendid light, and all our tears will be wiped away. And we shall see Jesus face to face! 

God bless you, my friends, I love you,


If we did Love Christ’s way, we’d find infinite Joy and infinite Peace

Hello my friends, 

I am actually surprised, I am back already. I am still stunned, at what he is given me just a little over a week ago. Mind you, all hell seems to be breaking loose every few days…..but he is faithful, he is guarding my mind and my heart. 

His peace has been mine now for well over a year – he is now establishing his joy in my soul. At times it’s not easy to keep, especially with the news from across the pond. But interestingly enough, even though my own situation has once again gone into a tailspin, the peace and joy, when I stay in the spirit, is a reality.

My heart is at rest, I know, he is transforming my mind a little more each time, tragedy or disaster strikes. He calibrates me more and more to seeing what he sees.

When we humans think, that our life falls apart, it actually falls into place.

Again I fell for the lie of the devil, still believing, that I needed money, to fix my situation. Whereas really, I only need more of Jesus, a deeper level of trust in him.

What I believed was divine intervention, wasn’t. Makes me think of three years ago, when I started dating someone I had met during my college time. Only to find out, that I deserved a deeper commitment than I was given, from the man I dated. What I thought was divinely inspired, wasn’t. Because we did not stand for the same values.

Still single to this day, and still waiting for my breakthrough – the breakthrough, that God has promised such a long time ago. Friends of mine had theirs. Much faster it seemed, and often I wonder, if mine will ever come.

All I know, the last years have been a constant pruning of who I am, of who I am meant to be. It feels I am stuck between the now and the not yet forever. 

How much longer? I don’t know. What I do know, however, is, that today again, Jesus prevented a big disaster. His protection goes so deep. Thank you Jesus. I am forever grateful for his divine intervention. 

I will never walk away, even if I was promised the whole wide world at my feet. I am much safer in the arms of him, who died for me. He brings me Peace and Joy everlasting.

Things seen are the things unseen manifested in the physical realm. The more I live and walk in the spiritual realm, the more I see the true beauty of God’s creation. The more I can never ever feel fully at home here, where life and people seem so fickle. Tossed around like nutshells in the sea.

I’d rather take a nap close to him, always knowing, that he keeps me safe. And the storm cannot harm me.

I am just passing through. This is not my home. The kingdom of God is. Where my husband is preparing my home for me. He is busy planning our wedding day. What a celebration that will be. I love you Jesus – you are forever mine. I am forever yours.

Love Christ’s way, that’s my quest. Timeless love, twin hearts united. That’s what love is for. That is what I am waiting for. Infinite Joy. Infinite Peace. Infinite Love with the one, that God has for me. Nothing can lure me away from his promise: to be united with him, who died for me. 

I know, this sounds completely off the hook. The world preaches instant gratification, if one relationship doesn’t fill your needs, go find another.

But true fulfillment can only be found, in a love that lasts a lifetime, and beyond. When we do love Christ’s way, we find deep joy and peace in loving and respecting our mate. This is God’s design for love. We better heed it, or we miss out on the infinite Joy and Healing found therein.

Forever your friend, 


Thank you Jesus – I 💗 you so much! 

Hello my dear friends, 

Today I am writing to you – I know it has been a while. It has been quite the journey over the last while. But God has been faithful once more. Jesus has kept me afloat, and he has renewed my hope and my faith got strengthened. I can never put words to what he has done.

Let me start, by saying: I love him so much. My faith has been quadrupled through all that has been going on in my life. 

Again, he gave me a deeper understanding of what his plan for our life here on earth truly is. And how he is changing us from Glory to Glory all the time. How he is depositing more and more of Heaven into our being. 

By choosing to trust him, even in the most dire circumstances, when it seems, that the world is closing in and you are not sure, if you were just imagining all that has changed in your life because you placed your trust solely in him…. – as if the world did have the final say, and you had to cave in. He lifts you up, and all of the sudden, you are set free – AGAIN.

Thank you Jesus – wow, I am literally speechless! I will leave it at that for now. I don’t think I can really explain all that happened, at least not yet.

All I know, is that the life in the Spirit, where you can see Heaven, hear Heaven, feel Heaven, smell Heaven, touch Heaven, yes even taste Heaven, is worth all the heartache and pain. All of the sudden you understand, why things had to happen, the way they did.

And truly all is good with your soul.

I will have to sit with this for a while, and just sing praises to God, be in his presence and rejoice. It may be some time until I am writing again.

One last thing, before I close off for today: in the last few days, the Lord has given me a glimpse of how, what I believed to happen already last year (write fiction), will come about.

His presence is all I need, to move forward. Resting in his arms, is what keeps me going. Lately I have been spending some precious quality time with him. He is the love of my life and I will never let go. I can never let go. We have been through too much, for me to not hold tight to his hand, that will ultimately lead me back to Paradise for good.

Here is two songs, that really meant and mean a lot to me: ENJOY! 

Heaven Lindsey Sterling
Stand by me Rachel Platten

Looking forward to seeing you in Heaven 😊💗🙌.

God bless you always, your friend,