This is it

Go all the way – into Paradise

Yes, my friends, go all the way!

Paradise is such an amazing place, and so worth it! Hanging out with Jesus……where else could I rather want to be? I truly don’t know.

The last few weeks: phewww, what a journey. But all I can say: I am finally back, where I belong.

Did you know, that where you belong is not a location, nor a destination. It’s to have arrived, smack in the middle of your own heart. The place where God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit abide, where the threesome is one with who you are. Your full potential at your fingertips! Thank you, Jesus for taking me back, to where I belong, in your arms forever! #thankful!
I love you – I always will, and this is my dwelling place.

All the struggles, all the pain, everything all of the sudden so worth it.

Everything brought me closer to your heart of hearts, where I would see clearly: you are all I ever needed, all I ever wanted, and my arms are opened wide.

It’s like a song, actually all of my favourite songs blended into one, all my birds highlighting different moments in time. My father, my mother, my son, my daughter, my siblings, my friends, all part of me, all blended into one.

I can see them now, for who they are, they all are a vital part of who I am, who I have become. Everything I rejected or judged in them, I rejected or judged in me. Now, that all these aspects are integrated inside of me, and I can cherish and appreciate all of them, or all of me, strife and jealousy no longer are needed.

I can soar! Like the Eagles soar, high up in the air. I knew it was possible. Here I am.

Thus, this is good bye – this time for good! Or better, until I see you in Heaven. Or better at my new blog ‘Harvest Time’ (In the name of the Father). On the other side of all of us, is Christ. Heaven. Paradise.

On the other side of all our separation struggles is Oneness with God, the father, God, the son and God, the Holy Ghost. The holy trinity of God is waiting for each and everyone of us.

Our inheritance and our destiny is Heaven – Heaven here on earth. Or once we have died to the physical world. It’s a choice, and the choice is ours. Free Will, the greatest gift of all.

Decide, to return into the loving arms of Christ, he is waiting there for you. He knocks at your heart’s door. Will you let him in?

I did, and my wildest dreams are coming true.

In his love forever – be strong and courageous. He will never ever disappoint you.


– finally home🌟 – no more tears -😍 (except happy or healing ones) β˜€οΈ

P.S. The Featured picture is by Julia Watkins, Energy Artist. Her work is simply amazing. Awesome work, JuliaπŸ’ž

Finances 303

Receive your blessings
Your help comes from the Lord – Always 🌟 Amen

Hello my sweet friends, 

here is what I learned just these last few days: the enemy has us trapped in this lie: that money rules the world, and time is money. Well, the good new is: it is not! God is, thus, Love is.We have been believing this for so long. It is going to take some serious unraveling of old/false belief systems.

Over the last months, I was stuck in my own rut – thinking that nothing was going to redeem the financial burden, that my parents are facing now. And of course not to mention my own. 

Interestingly I was willing to trust the Lord with the healing of my parents, against the existing doctor’s diagnosis. The reason being: a) I had experienced healing myself with my own asthma and allergies. b) when Jesus walked the earth, he and his disciples healed ailing people. And I have heard healing testimonies myself.

However, I had a rough time, believing, that all things are possible for God. He saved Daniel in the Lion’s den, he parted the Red Sea for Moses and the Israelites, he broke down the wall of Jericho. He created the Universe with all it’s galaxies – he can break the power of hell (money). 

By the way: money in and of itself is not evil. But the way we feel about it is, puts us in bondage. We think, we need it to make ends meet. The truth is: we don’t! Jesus is enough. He forever will be. Our needs are forever met in the glorious riches of Christ. When we start merely existing, to pay our bills, we are missing the life, Jesus came to bring. God actually wants us to pursue our dreams, to make a difference, by doing what we love doing, using the gifts and talents, he has given us. 

He can turn everything around in an instant. Just like he did, when Moses was faced with the Red Sea in front of him and the Egyptians coming after him, to enslave the Israelites all over again. I have been there myself for a long time now, so many months of bondage. But guess what: if we trust him, he will do it for either one of us.

All things are possible for God. All we need to do is: Be still and know, that He is God.

It takes a lot of undoing of what we believed for so long. The good news is: 

We will get there, if we never loose sight of what Jesus can do in, through and for us.

Trust him, my friends, and he will walk with us into the promised land. And we will never have to leave again. Amen – thank you Jesus. Praising him.


Packing up and going home – revisited


Expecting his best – always

Hello my dear friends

Again and again, I am being changed from Glory to Glory, by his great compassion for me. His plans are always higher than mine, his ways and thoughts are always higher and better than mine. Why am I calling this post: Packing up and going home – revisited: Last year I posted a similar post… can find that post in my blog inhispresence4evermore – written March 21, 2015. Click on the link below, to read the post:

Are we to go home, and leave Canada for good? I am trusting him for the answers, for the plan.

Somehow I believe, we ought to stay here for a few more years, but it sure doesn’t look like that in the so called reality.

There is only two ways, that it could work:  I find a company, that meets the provincial sponsorship criteria, or the government reverses my status back to permanent resident, as it was before I was falsely advised to renounce my status.

Will our lives be here – or abroad. My daughter’s fervent prayer is to stay here. This is her home. It’s here she has her friends.

My son is a little less attached to staying here. This doesn’t surprise me. He had to suffer through so much here in Canada. But again, God can redeem all that. Will he do it for us.

Is Satan arguing our case with God Almighty even now: ‘You may think, this woman and her children are yours, but what if I shook up their whole existence? Would they still praise and worship you?’ – well: yes, the answer is yes! We would! I always will. I can’t let go.

I trust him with all my heart, and lean not on my own understanding. It is no coincidence that this is my tattoo just above my left ankle. This has proven my life verse for many years now.

I go, where he has me go, and I know, whatever the devil intends for evil. God will turn it around for my/our best. He has in the past and he will in the future.

Looking back, all of life’s curveballs have brought me closer to the heart of my beloved, and the peace that floods my heart, even in the midst of financial break down, of challenges on numerous levels, is paramount.

So, looking back: I have to say, that I have to thank Satan for all that he has thrown our way. I would not be in my relationship with the Lord, where I am, if he had not tried to stop us in our tracks. Just, like Jesus had to be betrayed by Judas, to go to the cross to bring salvation to mankind, to fulfill the Father’s plan for redemption. Ultimately we have to thank Judas for his work.

Satan, as it seems right now, has proven to be a catalyst in my faith walk. Maybe we have it all wrong – maybe he is actually helping us, to return back home, and return to our personal Eden.

I trust, that the Lord will restore unto us, all that seems lost right now. He will show us the way – and in surrendering to his plan, we will lose all our self centered egotistic desires, and will find our true identity in Christ. Just like God had intended it from the start.
Let’s go, my friends, embrace the curveballs of life and end up in Heaven.

See you there πŸ’ž


Again, I am asked to let go.

Trusting, Hoping and Believing him for all he said he would do!

Hello my friends…..

Lately I have had another load of big struggles in – and outside of me. 

These days, I find it easier to resonate with my son, than with my daughter. She is turning into quite the teenager with an attitude. Mind you, she is only 10. 

My son has had some rough patches lately, too – luckily we got it sorted out and are even closer now. 

The financial situation is still extremely difficult. Especially since a source of income, that I had considered trustworthy turned sour in just a couple of days. How blessed am I, that despite the possibility of loosing money, where I thought I had finally found a way to sustain my family, no real damage was done. Thanks to my Jesus watching over me and his Angels making sure, that I was not in harms way.

Yet, that leaves me scrambling again. Not knowing where and how I can sustain my family. But I have to say: I am at peace – in the depth of my heart, I know, that my Jesus will come through again, how he has done many times over! 

But last night, when I felt extremely frustrated at my daughter, I felt compelled, to ask: Lord, why is our relationship that way – what is causing us, to see each other in such a way, that we cannot see the good, but have to find fault?

This morning, as I was leaving the house, to get coffee……the Lord showed me, that I had a lot of resentment inside my heart, with respect, to how my situation is right now, I feel taken advantage of, mainly by my original family – the choices they made, have brought me to where I am right now. Mind you, I allowed it, but I am still where I am.

I know, that my little girl feels the same way in many aspects of her life. Until I release these resentments into the hands of the only one, that can heal my heart, we are bound to frustrate one another (my daughter and I – and if I look deeper, my mother and I share the same feelings, my mother and her mother, too). Again it’s this passing unresolved issues on from generation to generation. 

Yet, with my son, 5 years ago, I took a step, to break those chains, that bound him and me in a similar struggle. Jesus guided my steps, and I faced a lot of the issues head on, holding on to my saviour’s hand. Knowing that he was going  to walk through this with me.

Today, my son and I have a much better relationship. Now I am going to do the same for my girl. Jesus will have to help me with that one, too.

Already today I got to release some pain and I shed some tears, I know, there will be more. But ultimately I know, that we will emerge from this journey, more like Christ, more beautiful, we will have handed the ashes to the one, who longs to give us the beauty, if we only hand him all the pieces.

Very often we don’t even know, that we are still holding on to old wounds – let him show you, where you are hurting, and he will heal your heart. Very tenderly, one piece at a time. Trust the journey and he will finish the good work, he has begun in you and me.

Then, one day, we will be able to see everything in a different, more splendid light, and all our tears will be wiped away. And we shall see Jesus face to face! 

God bless you, my friends, I love you,


If we did Love Christ’s way, we’d find infinite Joy and infinite Peace

Hello my friends, 

I am actually surprised, I am back already. I am still stunned, at what he is given me just a little over a week ago. Mind you, all hell seems to be breaking loose every few days…..but he is faithful, he is guarding my mind and my heart. 

His peace has been mine now for well over a year – he is now establishing his joy in my soul. At times it’s not easy to keep, especially with the news from across the pond. But interestingly enough, even though my own situation has once again gone into a tailspin, the peace and joy, when I stay in the spirit, is a reality.

My heart is at rest, I know, he is transforming my mind a little more each time, tragedy or disaster strikes. He calibrates me more and more to seeing what he sees.

When we humans think, that our life falls apart, it actually falls into place.

Again I fell for the lie of the devil, still believing, that I needed money, to fix my situation. Whereas really, I only need more of Jesus, a deeper level of trust in him.

What I believed was divine intervention, wasn’t. Makes me think of three years ago, when I started dating someone I had met during my college time. Only to find out, that I deserved a deeper commitment than I was given, from the man I dated. What I thought was divinely inspired, wasn’t. Because we did not stand for the same values.

Still single to this day, and still waiting for my breakthrough – the breakthrough, that God has promised such a long time ago. Friends of mine had theirs. Much faster it seemed, and often I wonder, if mine will ever come.

All I know, the last years have been a constant pruning of who I am, of who I am meant to be. It feels I am stuck between the now and the not yet forever. 

How much longer? I don’t know. What I do know, however, is, that today again, Jesus prevented a big disaster. His protection goes so deep. Thank you Jesus. I am forever grateful for his divine intervention. 

I will never walk away, even if I was promised the whole wide world at my feet. I am much safer in the arms of him, who died for me. He brings me Peace and Joy everlasting.

Things seen are the things unseen manifested in the physical realm. The more I live and walk in the spiritual realm, the more I see the true beauty of God’s creation. The more I can never ever feel fully at home here, where life and people seem so fickle. Tossed around like nutshells in the sea.

I’d rather take a nap close to him, always knowing, that he keeps me safe. And the storm cannot harm me.

I am just passing through. This is not my home. The kingdom of God is. Where my husband is preparing my home for me. He is busy planning our wedding day. What a celebration that will be. I love you Jesus – you are forever mine. I am forever yours.

Love Christ’s way, that’s my quest. Timeless love, twin hearts united. That’s what love is for. That is what I am waiting for. Infinite Joy. Infinite Peace. Infinite Love with the one, that God has for me. Nothing can lure me away from his promise: to be united with him, who died for me. 

I know, this sounds completely off the hook. The world preaches instant gratification, if one relationship doesn’t fill your needs, go find another.

But true fulfillment can only be found, in a love that lasts a lifetime, and beyond. When we do love Christ’s way, we find deep joy and peace in loving and respecting our mate. This is God’s design for love. We better heed it, or we miss out on the infinite Joy and Healing found therein.

Forever your friend,