Thank you Jesus – I πŸ’— you so much!Β 

Hello my dear friends, 

Today I am writing to you – I know it has been a while. It has been quite the journey over the last while. But God has been faithful once more. Jesus has kept me afloat, and he has renewed my hope and my faith got strengthened. I can never put words to what he has done.

Let me start, by saying: I love him so much. My faith has been quadrupled through all that has been going on in my life. 

Again, he gave me a deeper understanding of what his plan for our life here on earth truly is. And how he is changing us from Glory to Glory all the time. How he is depositing more and more of Heaven into our being. 

By choosing to trust him, even in the most dire circumstances, when it seems, that the world is closing in and you are not sure, if you were just imagining all that has changed in your life because you placed your trust solely in him…. – as if the world did have the final say, and you had to cave in. He lifts you up, and all of the sudden, you are set free – AGAIN.

Thank you Jesus – wow, I am literally speechless! I will leave it at that for now. I don’t think I can really explain all that happened, at least not yet.

All I know, is that the life in the Spirit, where you can see Heaven, hear Heaven, feel Heaven, smell Heaven, touch Heaven, yes even taste Heaven, is worth all the heartache and pain. All of the sudden you understand, why things had to happen, the way they did.

And truly all is good with your soul.

I will have to sit with this for a while, and just sing praises to God, be in his presence and rejoice. It may be some time until I am writing again.

One last thing, before I close off for today: in the last few days, the Lord has given me a glimpse of how, what I believed to happen already last year (write fiction), will come about.

His presence is all I need, to move forward. Resting in his arms, is what keeps me going. Lately I have been spending some precious quality time with him. He is the love of my life and I will never let go. I can never let go. We have been through too much, for me to not hold tight to his hand, that will ultimately lead me back to Paradise for good.

Here is two songs, that really meant and mean a lot to me: ENJOY! 

Heaven Lindsey Sterling
Stand by me Rachel Platten

Looking forward to seeing you in Heaven πŸ˜ŠπŸ’—πŸ™Œ.

God bless you always, your friend,


He never stops to blow my mind

Yes, my friends, he is all that and so much more.

I still feel as if I am in the movie ‘und ewig grΓΌsst das Murmeltier’ – aka ‘Groundhog Day’!

Things happen, and situations occur over and over again. Very often it seems as if I get a chance to rectify things this time around. Where I went wrong before, either due to my own clouded vision, or due to the clouded vision of other people involved.

The clouded vision I am talking about, means, not seeing the situation, like Jesus does. He has helped me wear the eyes of grace, mercy, redemption and love rather than the ones of condemnation, judgement and hurt ego.

I am forever grateful for this new vision. All things look different now. Nothing, as bleak as it may appear, is really bleak. Forever there is hope.

Again I am approaching my birthday. Turning yet another year older – and looking back, I can say, that 2015 sure was one of my hardest yet – facing challenges galore on so many levels, but in hind sight, I can say, that it only made me love Jesus more.

His love has always proven true and strong. It’s like a light piercing through the darkness, giving me hope and peace.

So far he has not abandoned me, but walked through the valleys with me. And I know, he never will. His is faithful and true, and he speaks to me of his deep love for me – how can I not trust him with everything concerning me?

I know I cannot turn back – I have long passed the point of no return. Every step leads me closer to Pradise, every breath leading me closer into his arms of everlasting love, joy, peace and purpose!

Life is a little subdued these days, due to my heart issue, just feels like I am going in slow motion. No need to worry, the pain has not returned. I am just taking things slow. I have cut back on coffee and I am living on smoothies except dinner with my children, to strengthen my body, by not putting too much strain on it for digestion. Thus it can put more energy into healing me from the inside out. Thus I honor the temple, in which God can dwell more fully every day.

I am not worried, for I know, that he is in control of all things. He leads me into a deeper understanding of his plan through and because of it.

In all the challenges of life, I can choose to trust him more or to trust him less, trying to take things in my own hands. My choice is always: I trust the Lord more. And the more I do, the more he can work in and through me. The more I trust him, and give him the glory for all that happens in my life, the more he can bless me.

I recently realized, that with regards to tithing, listening to the Holy Spirit, reading and obeying his word, praying, fasting or worshipping him, and giving my all to him, he can bless me more and more. The more I open my heart to him, the more he dwells in me, the more I can receive heaven here on earth.

This is his masterplan: his heart towards his children, his beloved, is Yes, Amen and Blessings galore. The dreams that you cannot quench out of your being are your destiny……your destiny is a journey not a destination – we all get there, flaws and all, the more we let his light shine through us.

I am forever thankful, for the closeness of our relationship. My precious Jesus and I – it’s pure love.

Thank you, Jesus, for loving me so much, for leading me closer and closer into your presence. Into paradise. With you.

I know, that with him, my best is yet to come.

Praise God – forever your friend


Appreciation is Key


Dear friends

The last couple of days, the Lord has shown me, that it is really important to appreciate the people around you, for who they are, for the gifts, they bring to the table, and not what or who you would like them to be, or the gifts, you would like them to have.

On Thursday, the Lord prompted me, to pray for my ex-husband….. – I never ended up doing it, cause as I drove to pick up the children from school, I had a severe pain in my chest…..with my left arm going numb and so I had to go to the hospital afterwards, and things got a little frazzled, and then shifted into very slow motion for me. He has left now, is actually flying back home right now.

But the Lord showed me, that maybe more than prayer right now, he needs to feel appreciated for who he is – I guess I never ever really did appreciate him for who he is.

He is a brain person, and he knows a lot about computers and how to do this and that and the other, of how to organize things on the computer – picture editing and so on and so forth. I always knew that…..but I didn’t I appreciated him for that…..actually he drove me crazy, when he wanted to teach me, how to do these things, when we were still together. I thought, why don’t you just do this and leave me alone with it, I don’t really need to know anyway and I am not really interested either. Today I realize, that this is his gift and I never received it. And so I apologized for never appreciating him for who he was and the gifts he brought into the equation.

I delieberately asked him, to help me with a few things, that I did not know, how to do – and listened with a different attitude to what he had to say. And I have to say: I do appreciate his gifts. He does know a lot, and he is very kindhearted. I am very sorry, that because I expected other things, I could not see the amazing person he really is. Thank you Jesus, for opening my eyes. Better late than never.

He is does not believe in God, but when he sees God’s love in motion, and how God is changing me in my attitude and behaviour towards him, it becomes more tangible. Then God can work in his heart.

Many of my needs were not met in our relationship, but neither did I meet all his needs. We did not speak the love language of each other, thus, we didn’t find the path to true happiness and a flourishing relationship. I pray that he and his new wife will be able to be better at that, than we were. They have my blessing.

I am learning, that in whatever it is, that we do, where we are in a relationship with other people (any relationship: husband-wife, parents-children, employer-employee, friend), and when we do not appreciate the gifts, the others bring to the table, we are bound to fail. The relationship turns bad until it’s non-existent, and we move on.

Make it your priority, to value the people in your life, if you want to keep them there…..otherwise, don’t complain, when they leave.

God has created us in his image, thus he created us relational, for he is a relational God. He wants to be in a relationship with us, he wants to relate to us – but we also have to be willing, to relate to him. With him, all things will fall into place. It sometimes takes a little longer, but that very often is due to us not wanting to listen.

I love it, when the Lord gets real with me, and shows me, where I am wrong and what I need to change – once I understand, it actually is easy, to understand the ones around me much better and to get along with them much more easily.

Sometimes the hurt is so deep in the other person, that it may take time to heal, but with each time they feel appreciated for who they are, you start to poke holes into the wall they have built around their hearts, for the Lord to reach in.

May this help you in finding true peace and joy in all of your relationships – God bless you my friends,


God has a plan for you – he surely does. His plans for you are good!Β 

The Names of God
Hello my friends, 

I recorded the following YouTube video yesterday…..he indeed has a plan for YOU – one that fits you to a T. Let me encourage you to dare to follow your dreams. He placed them in your hearts! 

I hope it encourages you to dare to step into the unknown and leave your comfort zone! 

Your friend always,


If I never met you, where would I be?


Hello my dear friends,

you won’t understand, why I am saying this, but: it’s good to be back. Why do I say that? I am back to writing my blog on blogger, rather than on WordPress. It’s funny that I even say that…..but it truly feels good to be back.

It’s been an interesting journey over the last years. God has been my healer, he has been the one I run to for every decision. 

Sometimes it takes me longer to understand, what he is trying to tell me…..but I cannot fathom, where I would be, if I never had met him. I am set free from so much. He has bestowed dignity and a confidence of who I am in him – simply incredible! Thank you, Jesus for loving me so much, and for reaching into the deepest parts of my heart, and to heal me from the inside out.

I am still learning to trust him, to be my sole provider. It goes so contrary to the common world view, that I stand here all alone…..walking by faith and not by sight. He has given me insight into his design for the world, that his ways truly are higher. I am having a hard time to trust, I admit that, for I have been taught all my life to believe differently.

Unfortunately, when we loose sight of who God really is, how much the Holy One truly loves us, we fall prey to the lies of the devil, that make us believe that we need money to cover our needs. 

He’s got that all wrong: we need Jesus – we need to fall in love with Jesus, we need to listen to the guidance of the Holy Spirit, and obey his promptings without restrictions.

Over the last little while, the devil almost had me cave in, because I, too, in my limited understanding of God, Heaven and the true template of life on earth, could not see, what he is trying to teach me. But when I listen closely, and only to my Jesus, I know, I am safe. He is going to make a way, when I see none. For he has created the Heavens and the Earth, he is the light, the way and the truth. Nothing exists, that has not been created through, in and for him.

Yesterday, as my church dedicated the little baby of one family of our congregation and all their family gathered, I felt such a collective deep longing for the return of Jesus, the risen Christ, that I know, he is coming back for his bride very soon.

I cannot wait to see him face to face. The only true love of my life – the one that I have been waiting for for such a long time. I know it won’t be long now, until we’ll be reunited for good.

In love with him, united in an everlasting love. Thank you, Jesus, for loving me and all mankind so much.

Your friend forever


We all need Jesus to part our Red Seas….


Hello my friends,

he is all this and so much more. I am thrilled to say, that he is doing marvelous things in my life right now, he is filling me more and more with his presence – more of his spirit. More of him…..I am going to share a little talk with you, that I just recorded.


I love y’all very much, and I look forward to share more, what God has been teaching me over the years.

God bless you more and more during 2016 – I can feel it’s the year of jubilee. All Glory, Honor and Praise to God Almighty.

Forever your friend

The Name Quest – amazing book by my friend John Avery, Morgan James, New York


Hello my sweet sweet friends,

He is all of this. Thank you, Jesus – you have shown me all these names in a very tangible way. It was not the reading of these names in a, by the way marvellous book: ‘The name quest – by my dear friend John Avery…..which I believe he sent me almost 2 years ago, I have been reading it all this time, on and off……it was almost as if the Lord was not allowing me to continue reading, until I had a deeper understanding of the meaning of these names in my life personally….

This book has been instrumental in a big way, in explaining the names of the Lord in a much bigger and more tangible way – along with the life teaching I received from Jesus in these areas – when he showed me that he is all of those and more to me. Today I know, that he has healed me, he has provided for all my needs – they are all met in more of Jesus in my life. 

Thank you Jesus. He is my peace, he is my banner, he is my righteousness, he is my shepherd, he is always present in all my circumstances, because he is alive in my heart, and he still is so much more. He is Jehovah, he is the Holy One, he is the Messiah and he is a jealous God, because he does not want to share us with any idol, we may have put on a pedestal. 

He wants all of us, all our faith, all our mind, all our strength, all our soul and all our heart focused on him – our eyes fixed on him – ALWAYS.

I don’t know for you, but he is my one and only.

Reading this book brought me to tears, whenever my Jesus reached through those pages, to touch and heal my heart. I thank John Avery for his thorough research and tender heart toward God – through his words all this became more tangible for me. This book is an awesome read for everyone, who wants to understand the true nature of God. I firmly believe, that the Holy Spirit still inspires Saints to write for him – and when we are born of the Spirit, he can use us. I thank the Holy Spirit for breathing this book into existence.

My friends, I hope I could inspire you, to read this marvelous treasure, that I have been given the privilege to read. Thank you, John Avery for diligently following the guidance of the Holy Spirit. Your book is simply amazing. May God continue to bless you abundantly in this new and brilliant year of Jubilee (2016). Amen

Thank you my friends for joining me in Paradise – it feels so good to be home and able to rest in his arms.

Forever your friend,